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“This Is The Night…” EXALT!

“This is the night…”

This phrase is repeated frequently in the Exultet, the Easter proclamation, at the Easter Vigil Mass:

“This is the night when first you saved our fathers…    

This is the night when the pillar of fire destroyed the darkness of sin!..

“This is the night when Christians everywhere … are restored to grace and grow together in holiness…

“This is the night when Jesus Christ broke the chains of death and rose triumphant from the grave.”

It goes on to sing of light, THE Light, Jesus Christ, the Light of the World.

The Vigil Mass begins outside where the Easter Fire is lit, blessed, and used to light the Paschal (Easter) Candle. This candle is symbolic of the Light of Christ, and as it is processed into the Church, we hear chanted “Behold the Light of Christ!” to which we respond, “Thanks be to God!” (The entire Easter Vigil is froth with ceremony, meaning and reason behind that ceremony, symbols, and realities. I wish I could delve into each facet of this stunning liturgy, but for simplicity’s sake, we’ll stick with the candle.)

The Paschal Candle from my parish – beautiful!

Each member of the faithful always has a small taper candle that is also lit from the Easter Fire via the Paschal Candle. The servers lit their tapers from the Paschal Candle and lit a few of the congregation’s candles. We then started sharing among ourselves, and the “Light of Christ” grew as it spread among His people! As we processed into the Church and the light continued to grow, a few things came to mind. First, we had to be willing to share our Light in order for everyone’s candle to be lit. Second, we had to be willing to receive Light from others, or our own would stay dark. Third, we had to protect our flame; walking too fast or a strong breeze would extinguish it.

I was blessed to attend this Mass with two of my most precious friends – Brianna and Mary.

Bri, Mary, and I arrived early to get a good seat, and waited anxiously for our candles to be lit by the Paschal Candle.

New Easter Fire! JOY!

When the Exultet was chanted, I was struck by the part towards the end talking about our candles, and the Paschal Candle. (If you would like to pray the entire Exultet, it may be found here.)

Let [this candle’s light] mingle with the lights of Heaven
and continue bravely burning
to dispel the darkness of this night!

May the Morning Star which never sets
find this flame still burning:
Christ, that Morning Star,
who came back from the dead,
and shed His peaceful light on all mankind,
Your Son, who lives and reigns for ever and ever.

“Mingle with the lights of Heaven…” We’re a part of Something, SomeONE, much bigger than ourselves. We are a part of the Mystical Body of Christ! Our light DOES mingle with those of Heaven! The unity we have in Christ is expressed in simple fire. The flame is very much symbolic of our Faith, also. We must give of ours to others, learn from the faith of others, and guard our own faith fiercely, lest it be extinguished by the gales and storms of this life. Also, as Christ said in Matthew 5, we are not to hid our lights, but set them out to be SEEN by others! We are to give LIGHT to our surroundings!

Also, I noticed the word ‘bravely’ was used in relation to the flame’s fidelity to burning. It does take bravery to live a life of Faith before the scorn of the world. And be willing to face the scornful with love, and offer your flame to them! And may each of us guard and spread our light until the Morning Star, the Light of the World, Jesus Christ returns to claim His own! Take this Easter Fire, and Go Light Your World!

A happy, holy, and blessed Easter to you and yours!! Rejoice in the Lord!

He is risen!

He is risen indeed!



Signed, Sealed, and Delivered – Holy Saturday

Today is a really awkward day.

Jesus is dead. He signed the New Covenant in His own Blood, the tomb was sealed, and His Soul has been delivered to His Heavenly Father. Annnnnd He’s gone…

It feels as if today shouldn’t even happen. From yesterday at the Good Friday Service until tonight at the Vigil, life as a disciple of Christ is just weird.

Our Master, the Lord, died. So how is life still going? How do the mundane things like eating, sleeping, talking… how does it keep going?! Doesn’t anyone know what happened yesterday? If HE is dead, how are we alive?

The soldiers are standing guard over His tomb. His apostles are hiding. The women are crying. Mary’s heart is broken.

Even with this overwhelming sense of loss, there is still something there, though, moving underneath… something hopeful, something growing… I can’t put my finger on it, but it lends some peace to the uncomfortable feeling of ‘out-of-place’ that follows me like a shadow every Holy Saturday.

“…and after rolling a great stone against the entrance of the tomb, they departed.” – Matthew 27:60


How Much Does He Love You? – Good Friday

Two summers ago, when working at The Pines Catholic Camp, I received a beautiful gift and grace from God that affirmed and confirmed my belief in Jesus’ presence in the Holy Eucharist. I was at a daily Mass one evening, and when I went up to receive the Precious Blood, I couldn’t see anything in the Chalice – the inside of the chalices at camp are gold-ish, and white wine had been consecrated. Thinking that, as had been the case the two daily Masses previous, only a tiny bit of the Precious Blood was left, I started tilting it before the whole weight was in my hand. It was full to the brim.

I spilled His Blood. It got on my face… on the floor… later I noticed a huge splotch on my t-shirt (which, ironically, had a Monstrance on it with the word Eucharist… God has a sense of humor!). I didn’t know what to do…

My mind filled with stories I’d read about when the Eucharist had fallen on the floor and how it was mourned, reverenced… Later, the Extraordinary Minister came to me. He saw I was very upset, and tried to calm me down, telling me I was alright; it wasn’t a sin – only an accident that could have happened to anyone. He told me to change shirts and rinse this one at an outside faucet, so the Savior’s Blood would run into the earth. I did as he said, and later the priest found me outside at the faucet washing my shirt with water and tears.

His compassion was that of a saint. He gently put his hand on my shoulder and asked me, “How much does He love you?”

All I could think to say was, “Enough to spill His Blood for me.”

Father smiled, and nodded.

Many weeks later, I was looking at a crucifix and thinking about that day. My own devotion to Mary had been growing in those weeks, and as I thought of her standing at the foot of the Cross with her Son, another image came to me. Up until this point, I’d always thought of myself as standing at a distance and watching her watching Jesus die. This time, though, she reached out for me, and brought me to the foot of the Cross with her. Looking up at Christ, His Precious Blood streamed down his legs and feet, and dripped off onto His holy mother’s face and clothes. This time, though, I was standing with her, and His Blood fell on me, too.

I came to realize many profound things from that one night in the humble Chapel at camp. Not only had Mary invited me deeper into the Passion of her Son as her companion, she had allowed me to share in her sorrow at the death of her Son. When I tilted that little chalice a bit too far, Jesus invited me deeper into the mystery of His Presence on the Blessed Sacrament. I spilled His Blood. It was my sins that sent Him to the Cross, but He also gave me a tangible experience that brought me to a much deeper love and appreciation for His Love and Sacrifice.

Oh Sacrament most Holy, oh Sacrament Devine, all Praise and all Thanksgiving be every moment Thine!

A Good Friday – by Cricket’s Song

Mary’s Ghillie is happy to introduce our first guest writer: Cricket’s Song! We’re grateful for his contribution to this blog, and hope to post more of his writing in the future!

The cool evening breeze gently brushed the woman’s graying hair against her lined cheek as she sat gazing out the window at the dying light of the setting sun. She stirred herself slowly in an attempt to rise, but soon gave in to the serenity of the fading day and instead settled into a more comfortable position; the women in the kitchen would have to do without her for a while longer. She tucked the ends of her clean but simple dress around her ankles and slowly returned her gaze to the fading light beyond her window. Her anxious eyes scanned the gathering gloom, hoping perhaps to see a messenger outlined against the fading light. Rumor had it that the authorities were looking for her Son, though she could not justify any reason why. She wished her husband was still alive; he would know what to do. He had been such a good father, so understanding and kind. Who else would have stayed with her, young and pregnant as she had been, and raised the child as his very own? She decided that if her Son did not contact her soon, she would turn the city over looking for Him like she had done that time when He was young. She smiled at the thought. If only she still had the energy she did then – not that she was weak or frail by any means. She was not getting younger though, and nowadays, He seemed to get into more trouble with each passing day.

People just do not understand Him sometimes, she thought.

Like that gossip she had overheard about Him leading a revolution, she had been shocked, and even now she could hardly reconcile herself to the idea. A feeling of unease seemed to make the room cramped and constricting and her brow creased at the thought, multiplying the winkles that played across her features. She was just shy of fifty, but her continuous traveling these last couple of years had aged her beyond nature. She placed her venerable hands into the folds of her dress; the air was starting to become a bit chill and if she inhaled slowly, she could just distinguish the faint smell of the sea. Memories of her Son came flooding back, unbidden, unasked for; the joyful, sorrowful, the challenging. She felt tears come to her eyes, blurring the forbidding darkness that gathered outside. She must be strong. She must pray.



Not but a few miles away, a young man frantically scrambled across the terrain, heedless of the numerous cuts and scrapes he had received in his battle with the nearly invisible brush and shrubs.

Why!? he cried internally. Why did this have to happen?

John had hastily left minutes before when he and his friends had been surprised by armed men. He was lucky he had not been slain in the confusion, as much as he had panicked. He furiously tried to make sense of the events that had so recently transpired. He and his friends had eaten supper together and then left for a nearby garden in hopes of a bit of peace. They had not been there long before the soldiers appeared out of nowhere.

How did anyone even know we were there? he thought for the twentieth time. And why us? he wondered.

He considered taking his sandals off but there was no telling what he might step on, and any time gained by going barefoot would be lost if he ended up limping the rest of the way. He was going to have to slow down soon, as his lungs were starting to constrict.

Am I even going the right direction? he wondered; it was hard to tell in the freshly fallen night.

The soldiers had not offer a word of explanation, and he had no idea what had happened to the rest of his group. He had only stayed long enough to see them capture One of his friends and now he must bear the terrible news to this Friend’s mother.

Friend!? he thought. How could he call the now-captive only a ‘friend’ when they were so much more like brothers? All thirteen of them had traveled many miles together, though it was this One in particular that he and the others looked up to. He was in such haste that only now did he grimly consider how his Friend’s mother would handle the news.

Not far now, he thought.



The woman turned with a start. A moment before she had thought she heard the faint sound of running. Perhaps she imagined it. What she heard now was the voice of one of the younger women calling her name. The voice’s owner soon appeared and scolded her for sitting to close to the window, warning against sickness. She smiled softly as she listened, not at all put out by the scolding nor repentant of the actions that earned the redress. Her dress swished as she silently let herself be helped to her feet. She certainly needed no help, but was still lost in thought.

“Come join us inside Mary,” she heard, and as she let herself be lead into the light, a faraway cricket began its lonely song.

Maundy – Holy Thursday

Today is often called “Maundy Thursday.” As often as I’ve heard that name for Holy Thursday, I’ve wondered what on earth “Maundy” even meant… It’s been bugging me enough lately, so I looked it up.

Maundy is the ceremony of washing the feet of the poor, and also refers to Jesus’ washing His Apostle’s feet at the Last Supper in the Gospel of John, chapter 13. Jesus got down on His hands and knees, and cleaned the dirtiest part of His band of Apostles. In doing this, He was trying to show us many things… We’ll look at three of them.

First, washing someone’s feet is nasty work – and if you think it’s bad in 2013, just imagine what it was like when people wore, not Nike’s, but thin sandals (if anything!) and walked everywhere on dirt roads! That had to have been GROSS! When feet needed washing (and this was often!), it was the job of the servants. When Jesus got around to Peter in verse six, Peter knew that Jesus was the Lord of the Universe, and felt like he (Peter) should wash Jesus’ feet, not the other way around! Jesus gently reminded him though that He knew Peter didn’t understand… and that was ok. “…You’ll understand later,” Jesus promises in verse seven. Jesus goes on to say that if He doesn’t wash Peter’s feet, Peter cannot have any inheritance with Him. Peter sees a little more clearly, and asks that Jesus not only wash his feet, but all the rest of him as well! (Oh Peter…!) Jesus doesn’t always ask us to understand every little thing He does in our lives, but He does ask us to lay aside our fear and trust Him. “You will understand later.”

Second, by washing nasty, dirty feet, Jesus is asking us to submit our dirtiness to Him. Peter didn’t want to! He saw how dirty his dirtiness was, and didn’t want Jesus to touch it. (I can’t say that I blame him!) Peter wanted to give Jesus the best and perfect parts of himself, and not let the yucky see the light of day, especially when Jesus, the Son of God, was looking. Jesus shows us though that He WANTS these parts of us. He wants you to give Him the yuckiest, nastiest, grossest parts of yourself, so that He can cleanse and heal them. Jesus told St. Faustina to “give Him her misery,” because it was the only part of her that was truly hers to give. The pretty stuff, the virtues, etc… they were all gifts and graces from God. Though we should offer our gifts to God also, He mostly wants the nasty stuff, so that He can relieve, clean, and heal. “If I do not wash you, you have no inheritance with Me.” Peter said it best: “Then not just my feet, Lord, but my hands and head as well!”

Third, Jesus is setting an example for us. He says in verse fourteen that “if I, therefore, the Master and Teacher, have washed your feet, you ought to wash one another’s feet.” He shows us by His own actions how we should love one another. Not only did He tolerate the dirtiness, but He embraced it, and washed it with His own hands. What would this look like in our lives? A smile to a complete stranger is a good place to start! Digging deeper though, Jesus is teaching us by example that we ought to bear one another burdens, and love each other through highs and lows. Do you know someone struggling with sin? PRAY for them!! And then TELL them you’re praying! Affirm their good efforts, console them in failure, encourage, and offer them every kindness! ‘Wash their feet’ as much as you can, and in this way, you imitate Christ!

Jesus poured Himself out completely for us, and today, Maundy (aka washing-of-the-feet) Thursday, He will ask you to pour yourself out alongside Him. How will you answer?

“Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet and dry them with the towel around his waist.” John 13:5

The Living Word – Wednesday of Holy Week

Ever heard that saying, “You are the only Bible some people will ever read?”

Well, sad as it may be that more people don’t read Scripture, it’s true. I confess to not reading nearly as much as I ought to, but the excuse I give my Spiritual Director is that I get plenty of the good stuff at daily Mass. (I mean after all, 4,591% of the Mass is a direct quote from Scripture, and the parts that aren’t allude to it!)

I had a pretty stark sip of reality last Thursday (can’t say that I recommend the stuff…tastes like tar…), and I realized how true that old saying is. My dear friend Brianna (to whom I just realized I owe a blog post or five) was telling me about a conversation with a coworker. Bri had just passively made the comment that she’d be clocking out early Friday so that arrangements could be made for her absence. Now Bri, much like myself, is pretty obviously NOT the go-out-get-wasted-on-the-weekends type, so her short workday at the end of the week caused a slight arousal of curiosity. Bri shared that she’d be going to Good Friday Services (yes, it IS a service… it’s the only day of the year there is NOT Mass in the Catholic Church), then staying in town to see Mel Gibson’s “The Passion of the Christ” with students from the local University. Her coworker went on to ask what the story was, anyway. She’d never heard it.

Once Bri got over the shock at meeting someone in EAST TEXAS (aka, the “Bible Belt”) who’d not heard the story, she invited her to come along.

After talking about it together, I realized that the way Brianna lived and worked was giving a beautiful testimony to her Faith in Christ and His Church. She was the Word of God that her coworker could read.

When we write the Word of God on our hearts, and most importantly, LIVE like its written there, we are being missionaries to a spiritually third-world country. I think we ought to follow the beautiful example of Mother Teresa to serve the poor on our street and at our door: the Poor in Spirit.

“It has been made manifest that YOU are the Epistle of Christ, ministered by us, and written down, not with ink, but with the Spirit of the living God, and not on tablets of stone, but on the fleshly tablets of the HEART.” 2 Corinthians 3:3 (emphasis added)

Living Stones – Tuesday of Holy Week

The Gospel reading for the Blessing of the Palms at Mass Sunday morning made me laugh. Really!

Towards the end, some of the Pharisees told Jesus to get His disciples to calm down, and Jesus quips that “If they stay silent, the very stones will cry out!”

Jesus was sassy! It’s true! Think about how that must have sounded – if His disciples hadn’t cried out “Hosanna!” in exultation, the ROCKS lying down in the DIRT would have! The very fibers of nature were aware that God was at hand, and all the Pharisees could think about was obeying the law just for the sake of obeying it, not because it drew their hearts to God.

As the Palms were blessed, and I marched into the Church with the masses of the faithful in attendance Palm Sunday morning, the choir began the hymn “Hosanna.” It made me smile to think that we the faithful, the modern-day disciples, we Christ’s living stones crying out “Hosanna to the Son of David!”

Don’t Cry, Little One – Monday of Holy Week

I’ve been trying hard to find ways of uniting myself with Christ and live this Holy Week WITH Him, instead of just watching. Sometimes when I receive Holy Communion, Jesus gives me an image to meditate on. Today during Mass, as I received His Body and Blood, the image of a scared child filled me. It was Jesus, about 1 or 2 years old, scared to death, and clinging to me fiercely. He could see the suffering, the scourging, and the cross… and He was so afraid!

All I could do was hold Him. I knew I couldn’t say I’d protect Him; I’m nowhere near strong enough. I couldn’t say it was a bad dream; it was very, very real. I couldn’t even say I would live it with Him; I know my soul is such a coward, the only way I could live it is through His grace.

It tore my heart from my chest to experience Jesus Christ, my Savior, my Lover, my LORD, crying and scared, as a small child. We know from the Agony in the Garden that His sweat became great drops of blood… In order for that to happen, biologically speaking, blood pressure is so high that the heart actually bursts. His heart broke before the first lash of the whip struck His sacred flesh.

Comfort your Lord Jesus this Holy Week as He prepares for the Cross.

Song: Mary From Thy Sacred Image – Meditation on the image of Our Lady of Perpetual Help

Hail Mary Series (Part 5 of 10) – Blessed Is The Fruit Of Thy Womb, Jesus!

Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with thee! Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus! Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us now, and at the hour of our death! Amen.

When you think of humility, what comes to mind?

For me, it’s the Blessed Mother. The Hail Mary is pretty much her prayer… the first lines are quoted directly from Scripture – the words of the Angel Gabriel, and Mary’s cousin Elizabeth – and the second half expresses the desire of us, the faithful, for her intercession on our behalf before her Devine Son! But in her utter humility, she asks we pause in the middle of her prayer and recall WHY she is someone whose prayers we seek. It is because of Who her Son is that we honor her, and seek the strength of her intercession.

The precious, powerful name of her Devine Son is at the heart of everything Mary does, and her favorite prayer is no exception! If you think through the Our Father, or the Glory Be, the other two cornerstones of prayer that we learned as babes, neither directly state the powerful name of Jesus; only Mary’s prayer does that.

How fitting it is that the one who knew Him best, His mother, should be the first to turn our hearts towards His. They are so close together that the more you seek and open your heart to Mary, the more you find her with her arms wrapped around her Son.

I was skyping my dear friend Anna today, and told her some of how my own relationship with Mary had its beginnings, and how it developed. It was curious that when I began a devotion to Mary in earnest and began to seek her specifically, the more she directed me to her Son. When I started going only to Christ, though, He was quick to remind me WHO was responsible for my more devoted search for Him, and sent me back to love on His mother. Anna shared a similar story, and we decided that it was the objective of Jesus and Mary to just make a [cookie] sandwich out of us, with each of them being the Oreo, and us being the cream!

At the heart of the Blessed Virgin Mary is the Cross of her Son. His death, which wrought our salvation, was the greatest sorrow of her life. Yet she never complained; she didn’t blame anyone for the cross (and she knows whose sins sent Him there!), and she didn’t get angry. She just stayed with Him, and quietly wept to herself.

Her anthem is that of Christ Crucified. As she opens her arms to embrace the limp body of her now-dead Son, she looks to us through tear-filled eyes and invites, “Come, hold my Son.”

Go Marching In!

I go to daily Mass whenever I can, and last Monday was no exception. Mass was business as usual (as ‘usual’ as the Mass ever is – it’s Heaven on earth!). Right before we moved to the Altar to receive Communion, the lady’s phone began to ring in the pew ahead of me. She frantically tried to fish the offending technology out of her purse to silence it, but by the time she dug it out the ringtone had run its course. It made me smile to hear the tune it played: “When the Saints go Marching In.” While the poor lady reddened, I began to consider the comparison between the cheerful melody we just heard and the action we were about to do. We were about to march up to the altar and partake in the Body and Blood of Jesus Christ. As Mother Angelica of EWTN is fond of reminding the faithful, we are all called to be saints. The “saints-in-the-making” at Mass that day were marching in to meet Jesus Christ, the Ultimate Saint-Making Machine.

I shared this thought with the phone’s owner after Mass, and she seemed pleased that God used her phone’s lack of manners to move a heart closer to sainthood.


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